blind_devil

[redarrowqueen]

The last few weeks had taken its toll.

Thea was on leave from pretty much everything so she could return to NYC for some R&R plus some intensive counseling with Father Lantom. But compared to last year when she was leaving the apartment within a few days it had been almost 2 weeks since she's done anything outside of training and counseling. Sure she was helping from afar (along with via phone since she was still a part time Defender along with people checking in from Star City, Central City along with NYC) but at the same time she felt more useless than ever. She needed to be knocked out of her funk and fast but how?

She mused softly,"Feeling more useless than before and last year was pretty bad. Need to shake this funk off but how?" as she fished for the notebook hidden under a sofa cushion. Matt had given her the idea to start keeping a journal again to keep track of her shifting moods but nothing was making sense. "At least this time we know its not the pit." she reminded herself with a shudder. The "Bad Brain" period had almost destroyed her both inside and out, she still had aftershocks but nowhere as severe as the prior winter when she had a massive emotional and mental breakdown.

So as she wrote (musing about something Kristen had mentioned in an email) she flipped on the TV for background noise, not caring she had landed on a cooking contest. That was when the door opened...

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[redarrowqueen]

"And I love you even more." Thea whispered mid return kiss. "Leaving Star City was hard but last summer taught me a lesson, sometimes getting out is the only way to properly face the dark." since everyone knew Thea would eventually go home but with her on indefinite leave from not just the team but the mayor's office she could finally work on fixing her self and heal properly both inside and out. "I'm back in counseling with father Lantom, I'm eating better, I'm still a freelance Defender to keep my need to help happy and we're even stronger than before in terms of our bond." their relationship being a major ray of light and knowing someone got her on every level.

[blind_devil]

"The latte machine getting a work out," Matt asks with a gentle chuckle, "he must be enjoying that." He liked the good father and was seeing himself over Elektra's death. He did feel a small amount of guilt being glad Thea wasn't snared in Oliver's mess at the moment, but if what he was hearing from Sam was right he knew things could have been a lot worse.

[redarrowqueen]

"Worse than usual." Thea did giggle, a coffee habit was common within the 4 teams and it showed. "But its helping, having a 3rd party I mean. "3 times a week for sessions, massive but I need massive to do the work." and she was hearing things. It was a good thing she left for Hell's Kitchen when she did but she still felt a little guilty about not being able to help.

[blind_devil]

Matt nodded. "Good," he says, "I've been seeing him too since Elektra and it's really been helping."

[redarrowqueen]

"Same for me." Thea nodded. "What started as a 3rd party when I needed that spare ear has become unreal. I'm slowly but finally facing things. Especially given the last few months." since between the invasion and Malcolm roring back it was not an easy period.